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Fish on a Hook.
Sunday, January 22, 2012

Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Hello. Once again, it's been a while since I last came around here and talked about anything. I guess now is as good a time as any to do a little updating.

What's new then?

I'll be leaving my current job soon - I've been roped into something else, and it looks pretty promising. Granted, it's going to take a lot of hard work and persistence, but I think I'll handle well enough. What is it, you may ask? Well, I suppose that's something for another time. Check in every once in a while - I might just tell you more about it.

2011 wasn't the best of years - all around it was just an incredibly tiring affair, and I had to deal with a lot of leftover problems from the previous year(s). But that's not new, no? One way or another, we're all haunted by our pasts, and I am no different.

I'm still battling that little monster everyone knows as "Loneliness". I'm just not quite over that certain someone - no, not yet. One does wonder though - how much longer till I get up and go, and leave this behind me? Trouble is I'm trying to get over something I've never had, and that makes it all the more difficult. Hell, I've spent a good five years doing just that. I guess I must be doing something terribly wrong, because after five solid years I'm still madly in love with her.

Ideas, anyone? I'm certainly drained of any.

By the way, this isn't even the half of it. Hell, I'd say I've just barely touched the surface. You have no idea how messed up I feel right now.

I wish I could go into further detail - it would certainly help lift the weight that's on my shoulders (at least, some of it). Unfortunately, I can't - for too many reasons. And all of them right, too.

Such is the matter of things.

Ah well.


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Queen of Hearts.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011

I know she knows I miss her. Though I don't think she knows just how much.


But then again, maybe she does. She's amazing that way.

Pretty damn amazing.

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Getaway.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Saat kupejamkan mataku
Engkau hadir dalam mimpiku
Dikala waktu kita masih bersama
Jelas tergambar senyumanmu
Jelas terlukiskan wajahmu
Dihatiku..masih tersimpan dirimu

I'll be visiting Cherating at the end of the month. I'm looking forward to it, not just because I need this getaway, but because I'll be going there with someone very special.

A little rest and relaxation will do us both a lot of good.

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Starry, Starry Night.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011

I was really looking forward to seeing you tonight.

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Between Black Lines.
Monday, May 30, 2011

It has been so long since I posted anything.

But who am I kidding? I don't post to ease my troubled mind anymore. I do it to get attention. Which is why the things I've written in my little brown book mean so much to me.

Those words are mine, and mine alone. That book is a look into my heart.

And I'll be damned if I ever let anyone look into my heart.

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Ace of Spades.
Friday, March 4, 2011

... And those who fear are lost.
The Queen of Hearts is always your best friend.
He deals the cards as a meditation
And those he plays never suspect
He doesn't play for the money he wins
He doesn't play for respect.

He deals the cards to find the answer
The sacred geometry of chance
The hidden law of probable outcome
The numbers lead a dance.

- Shape of My Heart, Sting.

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Tick.
Friday, February 18, 2011

Any minute now.

I need to learn to pace myself. I am always going too fast, or going too slow.

I, like everyone else, am a prisoner of time. And we all know: Time isn't the kindest of captors.

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Hati.
Friday, December 10, 2010

Sesungguhnya masih ada yang lebih penting dari sekedar kata cinta
Really?

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Crash Into Me.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010

"Sweet like candy to my soul, sweet you rock and sweet you roll"

Crash Into Me was the song that originally hooked me onto The Dave Matthews Band. The first time I listened to it, I knew I was listening to lyrical genius.

Dave Matthews manages to express lyrically what most of us (if not all) have gone through in our lives: the very feeling of being in love, and the sensuality of it all. While there are many songs out there in the world today that follow the same theme, I have yet to listen to one that captures the idea, the thought, the feeling, anywhere near as well as Dave Matthews has done.

If you're interested, click here and you'll find yourself listening to the song on Youtube. Trust me, you will not be disappointed.

I should be asleep, but I suppose a couple more hours of DMB for company would do me more good than harm.

Till next time.

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Black Ice.
Thursday, October 14, 2010

Who's house are you haunting tonight?


It's one of those nights - you look out the window and there's not a star in the sky. Outside, everything is still. Everyone - everything - is asleep. You're here, under the cold white lights of an empty room and you've absolutely no one to talk to.

What's ironic is that while you have a million thoughts swirling in your head, you have absolutely no idea how to put them into words, how to tell anyone anything you're feeling - and so while this silence can be comforting, it is at the very same time incredibly frustrating.

You turn to books, to hot drinks under a slow moving fan - and none of it helps. You try to fall asleep, but sleep just won't come to you. No, not tonight at least.

So what do you do?

I have no clue.

No clue at all.

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