Nuts & Bolts

Mhm.
Thursday, September 27, 2007

... Registered for Facebook yesterday.
Activated the account today, and edited my profile and whatnot. I did this because I was incredibly bored.

Someone was telling me that Facebook was nothing like Friendster/MySpace - supposedly more mature. After browsing through what it had to offer - I sat on my couch, questioned myself over why I didn't go with my first gut-instinct that told me these sites were a mistake for me.
Facebook and the word "Friends" sparked a few thoughts in me.

But I think we've all had enough of those supposedly "deep" and emo-ish posts I've had on this blog lately. Right? So I'll leave it in me for another day. Or maybe for never at all.

DotA tournament coming up in my area. Guna's invited me. He and I, with three others? My goodness, not to brag... but we would've pretty much sealed our victory just by signing up. Should I? Not sure if it's still running though. Haha. Kidding.

... He's not that good. :P

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Words of Wisdom.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007

The more educated we are, the more the world becomes an unsafe place.
- Syuhaida Hidayah -

Something my cousin posted on her blog. Didn't think of things that way till she said it. So true, no?
And it doesn't just apply to the safety of our surroundings. In a way, it applies to everything in life - the words we choose to speak, the days we dictate with the smallest of actions, the fragile emotions we tread on.

Maybe what my cousin said is true: If we were to get rid of any education we ever received - life would be that much easier to go through.

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The Faceless Liar.
Monday, September 24, 2007

I lied.

I still hang in doubt about what I said I had figured out.
I didn't want questions. I'm typing this out now because I need to put it down somewhere. And in a way, I want to share.

It's difficult, really. I struggle everyday to make myself see things as it should be, not dream of what it could be. And therein lies the biggest problem: I'm a dreamer.
I want it to be real, but I won't take the steps to make it be.
I look around, and I see a dream that's almost impossible to come true. Others have set out with full force on the path I so delicately tread - and all I've seen of their efforts is failure.
There's a fine line between what things are now, and what I want things to be. And the blatant truth is, attempting to cross over will bring a whole lot more problems than I could ever wish for.

I may not show it, but I get so very jealous when I see someone with enough guts to take that step forward and try their luck at what they think could be. Granted, these people aren't in the same position I am - though it doesn't change the fact that they have the ability to do what I can't.

Are dreams meant to come true, or are they merely a token for me to ponder on, for my amusement in my loneliest of hours?
If I knew how the things around me worked, how the people around me thought - I swear, it would make my life so much easier. I'd know exactly what to do. And I wouldn't regret my actions.

But now I'll continue struggling.
I've got to see things as it should be.
Not dream of what it could be.
Either way, I come out of this as one who has lost. And I know one thing for sure - accepting this loss is something that will be far harder than anything I'll be able to expect.

* I'm not expecting anyone to understand what it is I'm talking about - I worded this post in a manner which I'm positive will conceal enough of what it it is I'm facing. Bingo on the wordplay.
** I'm beginning to hate driving that lonely road down home. Stirs too many thoughts, evokes too many emotions. Sigh.

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Remember remember, the... 20-something of September... I think.
Friday, September 21, 2007

Hmmhmm.
I am bored out of my mind. In fact - so bored, that I decided to draw myself on Paint and caption the image with the word b---
You know what? I'll let the image speak for itself.

Damn. I know, I'm amazingly awesome.
Don't know why, but after visiting a blog belonging to one of Aliff's friends, I decided to click on a link she had there - Random Juice. Haha! Yes, that blog that Aliff, Collin and myself set out to create and discuss different issues relating to today's youth. Reading through the posts, I couldn't help but think...

... That blog couldn't be more dead. In fact... No wait, nevermind. I don't have any witty lines to add to that (damnit).

Quite depressing to see =___=" (eventhough I took myself off that blog almost immediately after I deleted my previous blog).

And now for a sudden change in topic.

The fasting month hasn't been kind to me so far. My sleeping pattern is completely off - sleeping at the usual time, but waking up far later. Shit. Nowadays I get up from sleep around 8 or 9am. That's late for my standards (considering I'm almost always up by 530am). There's a good side to it though - I don't get the usual 3 - 4 hour sleep as before. Now I have about 6-7 hours sleep daily. Woohoo! Bad thing is, I wake up with an ache in my neck. Gah! Remind me to get myself some new pillows, will you?

I was going to add more to this post, but then I realized I forgot what it is I wanted to add. My memory sucks. Seriously. Going downhill with each passing day T.T
On a related note...



... OK maybe it wasn't really related. By I just had to.
And some moment after that pic, I can tell what three girls thought:

Charlene: Ooohh rawr.... (Sigh. Charlene Charlene... I couldn't help myself xD)
Kimberley: ... Sick pervert. (If you can call me a pervert, it means you understood what the image was trying to imply! Esh esh esh.)
Gillian: ... Huh? (Blur case. But good la, not dirty minded. Haha >.>)

Adam Dewind, signing out!

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Hahaha...
Yes, I am manipulative, deceitful even. A play of words, the twist of thoughts, the angles of perception. It's an unforgiving yet deliberate path; An art.

A call to greatness. Few will come to understand it; Most will come to fear it.

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Assignments?
Monday, September 17, 2007

Just checked out my Java assignment questions.

I have to say I'm fairly excited. :D
This looks like a proper challenge, something I can work on - creatively and logically. My mind could use a little intensive, focused thinking.
Yes yes... definitely.

On a side note, here's another image from Adam's Vault-of-weird-Images (that's VowI to you).


I laughed. :D

Given a certain level of thought byAdam Dewind at 10:22 PM 0 comment(s)  

F1 Spy Saga.
Sunday, September 16, 2007

... Damn you McLaren. This is one fan you've disappointed.
I won't be following your progress for the rest of the season.
Just when I thought my favourite team could win the constructor's championship.

... I think I hear my father laughing. Sigh.

Given a certain level of thought byAdam Dewind at 8:01 PM 0 comment(s)  

... so staring is good?

Is it also good for women's health?
It would explain why you're always staring. Yes you, sis. Ha ha ha.

Given a certain level of thought byAdam Dewind at 5:59 PM 3 comment(s)