Me.
Dim Lights.
Friday, July 18, 2008
I've got a hundred people walking around me, and ten of them are whispering sweet nothings in my ears.
Yet I find myself feeling distant. Amidst all this cheer, something isn't in its place - and I feel lonely without it. These walls have seen too much of me - I'll have to leave them soon.
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4:14AM
What the hell am I doing being awake at this hour?
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The Oil Debate.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Who here watched the debate between Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim and Datuk Ahmad Shabery Cheek? I'm pretty sure most of you with a vested interest in the country's politics took time off your busy schedules to watch it.
The title of the debate was "Form A Government Today, Reduce Oil Price Tomorrow".
I'm not going to explain the points that were given during the debate by both parties - that you can obtain from other independent bloggers (though likely biased). Instead, I will offer my opinions on what transpired last night.
In my opinion, the debate was handled shamefully. While both parties had their share of points and arguments, a lot of time was wasted on irrelevent arguments and personal attacks (mostly on the Information Minister's part). Many questions were not answered completely, and the debate (more or less) progressed into a fight for party/political mileage. Of course, considering the parties involved and the state of Malaysian affairs (shall I mention "mentality" as well?), anyone with enough common sense would have expected the debate to turn into this.
Overall however, if I would name a winner: Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim. Hands down. In my opinion, Datuk Shabery didn't have enough on him to justify the price hike. Despite his shortcomings, he definitely had a few strong points, which the general public should consider. Blind loyalty to any political party won't help anyone after yesterday's debate - everyone needs to take into account both sides of the story if the country is to get out of the rut it's in.
Despite all this, the debate itself can be considered a success. It showed Malaysians that the Government is willing to be transparent (to a certain extent), and it offered the average Malaysian a deeper insight into the whole issue. There is talk on the news that Datuk Shabery is willing to take on Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim in another debate. I say: go for it.
I'm surprised you've stayed with me this far. Note that everything I've said above are merely my opinions on the matter - don't hold it against me, no matter where your alliances lie.
I have taken a very neutral standpoint in the past few months, and no longer directly support any political movement/party. Yay me.
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Rain & The Failed Poet.
Monday, July 14, 2008
It's 2:15PM, and the rain is pouring heavily here. The air is cool, and it feels clean. I love the smell of rain, especially in the morning and afternoon. Everything just seems so soothing. Put it together with the right choice of music, and there's this feeling of tranquility that doesn't come often in our everyday lives.
A long drive would make things perfect.
I have this urge to visit a beach. Smell the ocean, feel the sand between my toes. Taste the air, hear the waves, enjoy a drink or two with just the right people. Probably watch the stars in complete silence.
Maybe I should do that soon enough.
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Fire and Rain.
The other night at Backyard, the band played a song that I didn't hear in ages. It was so long since I heard it that I actually had trouble recognizing the song. In the end, Collin helped me out and told me what I needed to know.
Fire and Rain, by James Taylor. Ah, so good. As always with me and a good song... Well, just read on.
Just yesterday morning they let me know you were gone
Susanne the plans they made put an end to you
I walked out this morning and I wrote down this song
I just can't remember who to send it to
I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again
Won't you look down upon me, Jesus
You've got to help me make a stand
You've just got to see me through another day
My body's aching and my time is at hand
And I won't make it any other way
Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again
Been walking my mind to an easy time my back turned towards the sun
Lord knows when the cold wind blows it'll turn your head around
Well, there's hours of time on the telephone line to talk about things
to come
Sweet dreams and flying machines in pieces on the ground
Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you, baby, one more time again, now
Thought I'd see you one more time again
There's just a few things coming my way this time around, now
Thought I'd see you, thought I'd see you fire and rain, now
- James Taylor -
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Farewell Friend.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Feels a little odd.
Collin left for Singapore today, and he'll be in Australia by tomorrow. There goes one of my oldest and closest friend. It's going to be a while before I actually see him again.
We had a farewell session just two nights ago, with the company of Thilagan, Kingsley, Kishore, Ryan and Isaac. Was an incredible night - good drinks, great music, and perfect company. Kishore, Ryan, and Collin even got up on the pub's stage and performed as Maria's Margaritas for the last time. The guys played medleys of a few songs, the most awesome being their jazz/funk version of Wonderwall/Low (Oasis & Flo Rida, amazing).
This morning Collin and I went for breakfast together. Gosh. Oddly enough, I'm pretty much alone now here in Rawang.
I'm going to miss our midnight mamak sessions (or, almost midnight), our discussions (mostly political? Ha ha), and singing in the DSA. There's also the constant repetitive barrage of lame jokes.
As much of an asshole as I've been, there are only too few people who've been with me through it all - and Collin is one of them. Eight solid years of friendship, that's something to shout about. I'm going to miss you my friend! I hope.. everything goes well for you there.
Take care Chocolate Bear :D
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Enough.
Monday, July 7, 2008
Allow me a moment to be brutally honest.
I am so disappointed that some things are even given any consideration, when the fact of the matter is: little (or.. dare I say it: nothing?) has been done to alleviate the recent troubles that plague. I can only say so much, so often. And if my words have done nothing but fall on deaf ears, then who am I to say anything more?
Maybe I've been too soft spoken. Maybe I haven't been aggressive enough to show that I do not approve, that more can be done. Maybe I have been far too patient, and far too forgiving.
I find it difficult to go back and read what I just did.
I don't even have to mention a name. And if asked, forgive me - don't expect a fucking answer. Interpret this whichever way you want, apply it to yourself if you feel it is directed at you. Personally, I don't care. Not now.
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Lost Meaning.
These days, I often have a lot running through my mind. I think and think, and I find ways to put my emotions into words. I'd have it structured, and ready for this space here. But when I place myself right here, with my fingers tracing the keys of my laptop...
... I forget. I forget the words, the structure. I forget the meaning.
Frustrating.. especially when I use this blog as a form of escape. I need to be able to put my deepest, darkest, and most trivial thoughts down - in a way that will capture everything I feel - be it bad, good, or just plain confused.
I realize I could just as easily talk to someone about it, let it flow. For now, that.. isn't much of an option. I have my reasons, and I can only hope that those closest to me won't hold it against me.
So what the hell do I do now? I guess I wait - till I have my head together. Till I can express myself fully again.
This better not take too long.
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Silverstone.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
I should be working now, but I'm too distracted to start anything. At this date and hour, there's only one thing distracting me from my work: Formula 1!
Haha! It's the Silverstone GP!
It's been a really interesting race! Once again, it's a wet race. Though not as slippery as Monaco, the race is still pretty darn intense. Hamilton's leading now (I am so happy), and Ferrari made a critical error in their pit strategy! McLaren has been given a huge advantage. My father and I are finding it difficult to keep our eyes off the race.
BMW is driving a superb race. Heidfeld made an incredible overtaking maneuver on Alonso and Kovalainen, and Robert Kubica shoved his car through Kovalainen's McLaren like nothing! Granted, Kovalainen hadn't changed tyres yet. But needless to say, it's been amazing.
As of this sentence, Hamilton is leading by 25 seconds. Hahahaha!
I know I've said it before, but I'll say it again: this is such an amazing season!
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The Mind's Art.
Friday, July 4, 2008
I saw stars. I tasted wine. I was calm, collected. I felt warm. Comfortable. All because of a simple, painted picture - framed within the walls of my mind. Brushed together with memories of what was, what is, and the thought of what could be.
Dresses and a suit. Laughs and three distinctive smiles. Silent phones and quiet conversation.
Laughs... and three distinctive smiles.
I would've stared longer at the picture, and trace my fingers over it. But reality called.
Reality called.
I had hoped that the feeling would linger just a little longer, even with my eyes open to these four walls.
It doesn't take long for feelings to fade. Tragic, isn't it?
I saw stars. I tasted wine. I was warm. Comfortable.
Very comfortable.
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