Me.
The Black Knight.
Friday, February 29, 2008
Batman? No, you've got my title confused with "The Dark Knight". See the difference?
I'm talking about my car. My Satria Hitam! Muohohoho~
It was just five minutes ago that I walked out of my house to pick up the dry clothes, and my eyes locked onto my car. Sigh.
Despite it being a stock model (no modifications whatsoever), it's such a sexy beast. Despite it being with me for (give or take) three years, it's still so sexy hot. And of course, despite it being dirty 80% of the time, it still gives me an erection every time I touch it.
...
Ok maybe not an erection, that would be too much. And even if it were to that point, let's just pretend I didn't say anything like it, alright?
I'd post a picture of it, but I can't find the damn camera. The thing about my house is that, 110% of the time (wow, percentages percentages. When did this become a post about statistics?), things are never around whenever you want/need them. It's a conspiracy against me.
*Looks around*
I think they know I'm on to them. If anybody reads this, please wash my car by the end of the week. There isn't much time left. I'm going to publish this, and run. Oh shi--
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Laugh A Little.
This blog has been depressing of late. A change is needed, even if it be only temporary. And here, I post one of the many images I find amusing. Here, you will laugh with me!
Hahaha! This randomness made me choke on my saliva. Yes, yuck. Oh and because I'm such a good influence on the society, allow me to teach you how to speak Chinese in 5 minutes!
Muahahaha! "Wai Yu Mun Ching" is my favourite :D
God, I'm such an ignorant bastard.
WOOHOOO!
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Leave Your Questions Be.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
The uncertainty of the end is reason to the undying effort.
Goodnight.
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Half Past Forward.
Tired. Stressed. Some things are settled, for better or for worse.
It's been a quiet evening.
Yes, very quiet.
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Flashbacks of Foresight.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Hush.
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An Eclipse in Sanity.
Friday, February 22, 2008
Idiot. What were you expecting? More? Haha! Foolish attempts that bear fruit only to nothing, what do you deserve? Who did you think you were?
You are not ready. You never were! And you fooled yourself into thinking otherwise all this time?? Do you hear me laugh? The neighbours wake! And you. Don't listen - rather, hear my thinned voice.
What more can you want out of this? You are not going to get any of it. None of it. None!
Don't give me that crazed look, it is the same one I give you. Hold against yourself the tongue of a tortured mind! Meaning is endless, and you have only brushed the surface.
Let go now. It's time to drown.
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Tears in Silence.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
This comic strip of Calvin & Hobbes made me shed a tear. I don't know if this was by the original author, though I do remember a part of Calvin's life when he was on medication to help him with his wild imagination.
A rather sad strip, don't you think so?
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Frustration is just another word.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
A new day, and troubles are fresh.
I've had my mind on a lot of things lately, more specifically those relating to my future and studies. Two days back, I wrote a long post about how I'm still without a proper qualification to my name, and how I'm inching closer to twenty-two years of age. After spending an hour on the post, I decided not to publish it, and closed my browser instead. Just a few lost words, that's all.
It's ironic that, the next day I would have complications relating to my studies shoved in my face. The world can be fairly cruel sometimes.
As it is, I'm still fairly angry and disappointed about the complications that came to light yesterday. To make a long story short... It looks like I'm going to be staying on in HELP for (at least) a little longer than I originally intended. The way things are going now... will I only be able to obtain my degree when I'm twenty-four years of age?
I'll have a lot of catching up to do with my peers by then.
This situation didn't even come about because I've not been doing well in my studies. I'm doing well! But all this... Makes no difference if you've failed a few or passed it all - you'll end up graduating at the same time in the end. How can you not feel frustrated? It's annoying to think that despite whatever effort that has been put in, at the very end of it all I'll still graduate long after many of my peers have. A year or two from now, most of everyone I'm close to in college will be gone - and I'll likely still be around.
It's funny how, despite how hard I try... everything around me just doesn't seem to go my way.
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For You.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
I believe I deserve at least some explanation as to why this is happening. And so I've tried. I've tried to communicate, but my efforts have been shot down. And truth be told, it comes to a point where I have to realize that I've got to give up.
And that's what I'm doing. For now, I can't keep asking that question, and I can't keep hoping that, at the very least, you'll tell me what's wrong. I was never asking for the whole explanation, I know - some things probably need to be kept to yourself. But to keep me in the dark for so long, and make me question myself of what I've done wrong? It's not fair.
It's just not fair.
I still am a little depressed, but not as much as I was in the days before. I guess if this is how you want it to be, I'm not going to exert myself further in the hopes of rectifying it. No. I believe I've done my part. And right now, I'm constantly reminding myself: that's all that matters.
What happens next? Well...
... that's entirely up to you.
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Friday.
Friday, February 8, 2008
iPod battery is dead. No one seems to be online at the current moment (well, no one that I would like to talk to that is. No offense). Nothing interesting on the Internet. Contemplating on connecting the iPod to the family PC to charge it, and risk losing all the media in there.
It's only 2:45PM. There's still a lot left of the day.
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Wednesday.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
O hai thar.
When I run, the ground rumbles and I imagine myself to be a large dinosaur.
It's fun, you should try it out some time.
On a different note, Happy Chinese New Year people.
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A Lack of Something That Was Always There.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
The power adapter for my laptop malfunctioned last night, and now I can't use it. My laptop battery is dead, so that means I can't use my laptop either. Considering I have limited access to the family PC, I'm not getting much of my usual Internet-sweetness.
It's bearable. I can live without the Internet. However... I can't without my music. My iPod is the only thing keeping me sane right now. Even that is at half battery, and I can't charge it. Using the PC to charge it is a big NO, because when the two devices attempt to communicate with one another, every file on my iPod is deleted - really quite stressful.
Apparently there's a Dell Direct Store in Mid Valley Megamall. I'll have to check it out soon enough. The only problem is... how much will it cost? If it costs too much... I guess I'm going to have to say hi to the fellows at Lowyat Plaza. Either that or go broke again. Whee.
On an unrelated note, I recommend listening to Lupe Fiasco's latest album offering. Pretty sweet, if you're a fan of the likes of Kanye West and Nas.
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Goodnight, Goodnight.
Monday, February 4, 2008
Never take friendship personal.
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Amour.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Die Liebe ist ein wildes Tier
Sie atmet dich sie sucht nach dir
Nistet auf gebrochenen Herzen
Geht auf Jagd bei Kuss und Kerzen
Saugt sich fest an deinen Lippen
Gräbt sich Gänge durch die Rippen
Lässt sich fallen weich wie Schnee
Erst wird es heiß dann kalt am Ende tut es wehAmour Amour
Alle wollen nur dich zähmen
Amour Amour am Ende
gefangen zwischen deinen ZähnenDie Liebe ist ein wildes Tier
Sie beißt und kratzt und tritt nach mir
Hält mich mit tausend Armen fest
Zerrt mich in ihr Liebesnest
Frißt mich auf mit Haut und Haar
und würgt mich wieder aus nach Tag und Jahr
Läßt sich fallen weich wie Schnee
Erst wird es heiß dann kalt am Ende tut es wehAmour Amour
Alle wollen nur dich zähmen
Amour Amour am Ende
gefangen zwischen deinen ZähnenDie Liebe ist ein wildes Tier
In die Falle gehst du ihr
In die Augen starrt sie dir
Verzaubert wenn ihr Blick dich trifftBitte bitte gib mir Gift
- Rammstein -
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Saturday.
Saturday, February 2, 2008
One month to go before I'm back in class.
It'll be my last semester under the diploma program. After that, whether I'll stay on in HELP or go off somewhere else remains to be seen.
Feels like it was just yesterday when I took my first step into life as a college student. Miss Chia's class, with Amir and Wai Keong sitting next to me. Back then I was never close to Weng Chi or any of the guys (with the exception of Amir). Looking back, the girls weren't even a part of my life yet.
Wow. It's been almost two and a half years since. Look at where I am now. It's been a rough ride, and there's a long way to go left. I'm tired and worn out, but hey - these feet of mine haven't fallen apart. Not yet anyway.
I've got a lot on my head right now, and I'm not sure what to post here or how to post it. I guess I need a little bit of time to gain perspective and composure on these things fluttering about in my mind.
Nice guys finish last.
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